And the embabies have landed..

The transfer went good. God.. I hate that big ass speculum. That and I guess my bladder was TOO full so Dr. A made me get all in position on the table, checked it and twice I had to get up and go pee to get rid of some of it!! Fun.

Anyhow.. when we got there, we were told that of the 8 that had fertilized we had:
2 blasts
3 pre-blasts
2 morula's (which are pre pre blast, LOL)
1 of the 8 had finally pooped out

We were very happy to hear that. Beats the crap out of my first IVF cycle for sure! He said they are going to freeze on day 6 this time so I should get my freeze report in the next couple days, but he said the rest were all in a sort of pre blast stage so he expected most, if not all of them to be frozen. That would be nice to have 4 more snowbabies for use at some point if we need them.

So then came the conversation of "how many". Dh and I decided that we would let the Dr. make the call. He did.

Three.

We put in the 2 blasts and the most advanced pre blast.

For 3 reasons. 1) b/c Ivf is the only way I can ever get pregnant. 2) I have already had a failed IVF with 2 blasts, and 3) my age.

He said he really believes this is going to work and he also said that with the quality of these embabies, we walked out of there with a freakin 10% chance of triplets. So I am 50% freaked out by the triplet possibility and 50% like.. yeah right, been here before and I still have no baby(s) so why would this time be different?

I made a comment to that effect as we were waiting the customary half hour on the table after the transfer. It was the first time in this whole process of IVF 1 or 2 that I have seen Jeff get choked up. He asked me to please not say anything negative in his presence or the presence of his embabies. I know he wants to be a dad.. bad. But he is usually so good at hiding his hurt and fears to keep me strong. Today.. I felt how bad this is affecting him too. He really wants this work. Which of course just makes me feel more like a total defective failure.

So tonight I did PIO shot #2. My ass has hardly recovered from the first one. Thank god I only have to do them every third day. But I have the suppositories 3 times a day. I also had to do half of another trigger shot or booster as they call it now. So I had a huge needle in both of my butt cheeks tonight. It was fabulous.

Now the waiting begins.